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Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes

6/22/2012
Change is hard....and round and silver and jingles in your pocket.  It's also the passing from one place, state, form, or phase to another. And that's hard too.

I have one week left in my residency. The past three years have been such a whirlwind.  Ignoring the loose ends that have to be tied up in the meantime, I graduate Thursday - but actually finish work on Friday morning.  I received my family medicine board scores yesterday, so as of July 1 I'll be a board certified family physician. This simultaneously thrills and terrifies me. 

The aspect of this transition at the forefront of my mind at the moment, however, is the endings and the goodbyes. Today was my last day to work in our indigent/migrant OB clinic.  I've had final check-ups with many of my patients. Earlier this week a patient brought me a bouquet of hydrangeas from her yard and today another patient brought me a painting he had made for me. Every interaction with the people I've worked with for the past three years has a bittersweet tinge. Even my last night on call, as liberating as that was, was kinda sad. There have been lots of hugs and well-wishes. 

The future, though I have distinct plans, is very uncertain.  Nature of the beast, I suppose. And as challenging as this period in my life has been, it's been good. I'm sad about leaving my cozy home, my dear friends and colleagues, the security and familiarity of my job.  While I'm looking forward to the next phase in many respects, letting go isn't easy. 


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pityparties
Jun. 23rd, 2012 09:49 pm (UTC)
i know i don't know you personally or anything, but i am so freakin' proud of you and everything you've accomplished! i can't even imagine how overwhelming it must feel to have finished a massive part of your life, but i hope you take the time to think about what a brilliant thing you've done. not everyone has the strength or the follow-through to finish what they've started, so please, drink in this moment. you deserve it. i have no doubt you'll be doing wonderful things in the future. -hugs-
antesqueluz
Jun. 26th, 2012 08:14 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much, sweetheart. I needed a little positive perspective, and your support really does mean alot to me. *hugs*
angus_honey
Jun. 24th, 2012 10:31 am (UTC)
OMG...congratulations doctor!! Do you know where you're going next?
antesqueluz
Jun. 26th, 2012 08:18 pm (UTC)
Thanks. I've signed on for an additional year of training in Memphis, TN - an OB fellowship so that I can do C-sections. Between graduation and the start of my time in Memphis, I'm supposed to spend a month in Ecuador. That's if we get all the ducks in a row...
angus_honey
Jun. 27th, 2012 05:32 am (UTC)
Ha-ha! More travelogues... :O)
beesandbrews
Jun. 24th, 2012 10:53 am (UTC)
You're on the cusp of the rest of your life. That's an exciting time. Congratulations!
antesqueluz
Jun. 26th, 2012 08:19 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :-)
writer_klmeri
Jun. 24th, 2012 02:42 pm (UTC)
I know letting go isn't easy BUT YOU ARE GRADUATING! Oh my god, congratulations! Even though things are changing, let yourself be happy for your accomplishment too. I know I'm happy for you.
antesqueluz
Jun. 26th, 2012 08:21 pm (UTC)
Thank you for that. You're right. I appreciate your perspective, bb. *hugs*
f_m_r_l
Jun. 24th, 2012 08:46 pm (UTC)
Congratulations! Once your residency is finished, you get more sleep? Will the hole in the roof become someone else's problem?
antesqueluz
Jun. 26th, 2012 08:26 pm (UTC)
Thanks! Not sure about the sleep thing...I'm starting a fellowship at the end of the summer. 1 more year so I can do more OB. Thankfully the hole in the roof is fixed. The hole in the ceiling is another matter...
mrasaki
Jun. 25th, 2012 05:59 am (UTC)
Congratulations so hard on graduating!! It's always letting go of one stage in your life and moving on, but I bet the next stage will be even better.
antesqueluz
Jun. 26th, 2012 08:26 pm (UTC)
Thanks, bb! :-)
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antesqueluz
Jul. 1st, 2012 08:47 pm (UTC)
Thank you, dear. *snuggles back*
severina2001
Jun. 28th, 2012 10:05 pm (UTC)
Wow. Congratulations, Dr. Luz!

Change is always frightening but it's exhilirating too. And you are making a difference in this world. I hope you embrace it all!
antesqueluz
Jul. 1st, 2012 08:47 pm (UTC)
Thank you, bb. :-D
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