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Just breathe, please.

I had a pretty difficult delivery last week. It was a first-time mom, a long labor, a lot of pushing.  Baby looked fine on the monitor throughout. Labor had turned a sweet, mild-mannered young lady into a screaming banshee.  I thought her head might actually start spinning. She did eventually successfully deliver, but the baby did not immediately pink up and, you know, breathe. The nurses started resuscitation with ventilations and compressions.  The heart rate was low, respiratory effort was poor.  As I took the stethoscope from one of the nurses to count out the heartbeats, I had the momentary panicky thought that this baby might die. This baby can't die.  Baby, don't you dare die.  After the longest 7 minutes of my life, the baby's first 7 minutes of life, baby was breathing on its own, looking around, with a good strong heartbeat.  Both mom and baby turned out fine.  All's well that ends well, as they say, but geeze!  The sheer terror of those interminable minutes waiting for a newborn to recover from the shock of birth and take over breathing, living, is horrifying. The what-ifs are too terrible to contemplate. But they are essential to contemplate. Part of the job is being prepared for the worst case. But, God, I hate the worst case.

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beesandbrews
Jun. 28th, 2014 07:20 pm (UTC)
Bet the kid holds its breath until it gets its way when its old enough to have tantrums. ;-)

Good job to you and your team. :-)
antesqueluz
Jun. 30th, 2014 12:43 am (UTC)
I bet you're right! Stubborn little thing...
Thanks!
hardboiledbaby
Jun. 29th, 2014 02:34 am (UTC)
What you do is amazing and terrifying, in equal parts *g* Congratulations to you, your team, and to the new Mom!
antesqueluz
Jun. 30th, 2014 12:43 am (UTC)
Definitely terrifying! Thanks, dear!
pityparties
Jun. 29th, 2014 02:39 am (UTC)
-hugs- i can't even imagine how intense those seven minutes must have been. glad the baby and the banshee are well. ;) i admire your strength. it takes a lot to be there, always be ready for the worst case scenario, and hoping beyond hope it doesn't happen. i don't think i'd be able to, that's for sure.
antesqueluz
Jun. 30th, 2014 12:46 am (UTC)
Thanks, dear. It's those moments that make me wonder what the hell I've gotten myself into. But once it's all over, it seems pretty worthwhile.
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antesqueluz
Jun. 30th, 2014 12:46 am (UTC)
I'm so thankful, too. *hugs*
owensheart
Jun. 29th, 2014 12:52 pm (UTC)
What a tough time for all of you, glad it all turned out well though.
antesqueluz
Jun. 30th, 2014 12:46 am (UTC)
Thanks! Me, too!
severina2001
Jul. 2nd, 2014 10:26 pm (UTC)
Terrifying! Can't imagine what the mom (and dad) were going through for those seven minutes. Kudos to you and your team. You deserve alllll the chocolate.
angels3
Sep. 7th, 2014 08:38 am (UTC)
Sounds like baby was just tired from a really long delivery, but it had to be terrifying for everyone.

Sorry I'm soooo late. I'm way behind and I thought I had caught up with comments but yours was hidden between the fifty stories I've not read in my inbox. :(
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