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You are only coming through in waves

Hello? Is there any body in there?
Now that I've got the Pink Floyd out of my system...

I was truly shocked to see that my last entry was in August. August! I knew it'd been a while, but I had no idea it'd been that long! I've had my LJ pals on my mind and I've been missin' you! I'm still kickin'! The story of my life is much the same - lots of babies, lots of patients, general insanity. I do have a new partner in my practice. She's great and we get along swimmingly. Unfortunately, administration has been a pain in the ass. The nitty gritty day to day details of running an office are downright demoralizing. I did not get into medicine to manage a business, fight insurance companies and Medicare and Medicaid, or practice defensive medicine. I just wanna take care of my patients. *sigh* But such is the modern practice of medicine in the United States. I feel like I spend my days jumping hurdles...

We've been pretty much slammed the last few months and running non-stop. Eventually, after a very bad week in October during which I had 2 patients within 2 days with 2nd trimester miscarriages I decided that I needed a break. I left my partner to hold down the fort for a week earlier this month and headed out of town. It was the first real vacation I'd taken in over a year. In fact, I can count on 1 hand the number of times I've even left the confines of this little town in the last year - and 2 of those times were to undergo a medical procedure! I went to stay with my parents in Chicago and it was fabulous. I didn't realize just how wound up I'd been until I got back and started getting tense again. Of course I jumped right back in and delivered 5 babies the week I got back to town, most of whom were born between midnight and 4 AM. Thankfully, this past week has been a bit quieter, quiet enough to enjoy the holiday in spite of being on call.

And now it's the end of November with the holidays and year's end just 'round the corner. I feel like the sands of time are more like quicksand dragging me under. The more I struggle, the faster I sink! Maybe it's a bit early for New Year's resolutions, but I've got to have a bit more sanity in my life and pace myself so that I don't lose my mind. Ah, well. For now we'll just keep on keepin' on. :-)

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angels3
Dec. 1st, 2014 02:58 am (UTC)
I'm very happy things seem to be going well at work even if the pain in the butt details get in the way a lot.

Hopefully it won't be so long before get some free time to stop in again :)
antesqueluz
Dec. 2nd, 2014 02:44 am (UTC)
Here's hoping! Take good care, dear!
tkeylasunset
Dec. 1st, 2014 03:00 am (UTC)
I've missed you.

Take care of yourself. That has to be your #1 priority!!

(((hugs)))
antesqueluz
Dec. 2nd, 2014 02:45 am (UTC)
I've missed you, too!

I'm gonna try. I know I won't be any good to anybody if I don't. *hugs*
owensheart
Dec. 1st, 2014 12:19 pm (UTC)
Welcome back!

sounds like you been really busy.
antesqueluz
Dec. 2nd, 2014 02:47 am (UTC)
Thanks! :-)

It's been pretty crazy, but hopefully I can take more time to stay connected.
beesandbrews
Dec. 1st, 2014 12:51 pm (UTC)
Welcome back!
antesqueluz
Dec. 2nd, 2014 02:47 am (UTC)
Thank you! :-)
hardboiledbaby
Dec. 2nd, 2014 08:07 am (UTC)
You've chosen a career that doesn't lend itself to quiet, I think, but I hope things calm down and that you can enjoy the holidays :)
antesqueluz
Dec. 3rd, 2014 01:37 am (UTC)
Quite right. I suppose we all have days that make us examine our life choices...

Thank you, dear. I hope your holidays are happy! :-)
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