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Help! Help! I'm bein' repressed!

By my own subconscious...

I may have mentioned this before, but repression is considered an immature coping mechanism. I excel at it. So, I spent 10 days shut up in my house doing precious little that could be construed as productive.  I didn't leave from the 1st through the 11th when I finally went out to scrounge up some food. I ventured out again on Thurs. and Fri. to run errands. Today I drove about 2/3 of the way to Memphis where I'm going to spend the next year...after I spend a month in Ecuador.  I'm going to find a place to rent.  Thing of it is, I really don't want to leave my house.  I love my little house and my neighborhood and my routines. *sigh* I've been expertly avoiding dealing with all the crap that has to be done. So expertly that I'm not entirely sure what all those things are.  There have been a few helpful reminders of my responsibilities, like the jury summons I got in the mail and the COBRA application. But I have taken a complete vacation - or complete leave of my senses. I have 1 week before I go to Ecuador for a month and then less than a week after I get back to move to Memphis before orientation for my fellowship. 

I know once I get there it'll be fine. I know I need to do this - move and get this additional training so that I can do what I really want to do in my career and get on with it... But right now the logistics are killing me and I just want to hole up in my house and hide. Oh, wait! Been doing that!  Gonna have to put on my big girl britches and get on with it...


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Jul. 15th, 2012 04:55 am (UTC)
hope you can get it all sorted! sounds stressful *hugs*
Jul. 21st, 2012 11:55 pm (UTC)
Thanks. It seems to be coming together piece by piece...but I'm afraid I'm forgetting something!
Jul. 15th, 2012 06:59 am (UTC)
*hugs* I know it can all seem overwhelming at times. Change is hard. (That's why there are all those management and self-help books on the topic with people hoping that for $22.95 and some reading the book can make everything less difficult.) I have confidence in you, if that helps. I have confidence in you even if it doesn't help.
Jul. 21st, 2012 11:55 pm (UTC)
It does help. Thank you, dear.
Jul. 15th, 2012 06:57 pm (UTC)
Repression may be considered an immature coping mechanism, but that doesn't mean it's not occasionally necessary. We all deal with things in our own ways and our own time.

(I just took three days to read an email from my doctor. I understand this.)

I hope that when you get on with it, everything goes well. *hugs*
Jul. 21st, 2012 11:56 pm (UTC)
Thanks, dear. I'm coping bit by bit, I think. *hugs*
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Jul. 21st, 2012 11:56 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I found an apartment, so it seems a bit more real and a bit more doable now.
Jul. 16th, 2012 08:47 pm (UTC)
Lol! I don't think you're repressed I think you were just taking a well earned chillaxing few days to regroup ready for the future! After all this will be the last time you start some training...next year you will be THE doc...out there on your own...
Jul. 21st, 2012 11:57 pm (UTC)
That's a better perspective. I think I just crashed once I finally came to a stop...
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